PAIN IS GOOD

so i overdosed on grey's anatomy today. who cares? but i picked up something... pain is good.

so i'm not in total pain. painfully confused probably but it's not so bad. and i can't complain really. if i learn to wait it out... if i learn to be patient... it'll all fall into place and it'll all be good... eventually... EVENTAULLY.

so i guess i wasn't born patient. and yes, i am the type who doesn't really mind knowing the ending. i don't. i'd still enjoy the story as much.

and i appreciate transparency and i like brutal honesty. if only the future can afford to be brutally honest now and tell...

"no girl, you'll end up with this guy... not that guy that you like so much... it's gonna be THIS GUY. you'll like him too... you'll see."

i know, i know. i'm being a brat and i can't have this easy. cause its not supposed to be easy and there's supposed to be a certain amount of pain...

painfully waiting...
painfully wondering...
painfully anticipating...

and i think i'm too old be dancing to this tune and i'd rather sit already and have that drink at the bar that you get right after you dance the dance and just right before the boy goes home with the girl. but i guess the world and all else in it have agreed that i should continue to dance around and wait while my feet hurt...

so i dance...

painfully dancing to the tune of the waiting game...

but i heard them say it today... pain is good. pain reminds you that you are alive. pain is there for a reason. i hope the reason gives me a kiss soon... kiss the pain away...