Thursday, April 1, 2010

drought

drought.. it's been another month and still I can't seem to find the inspiration to write. Oh well.. I'm not about to push myself and write nonsense..but then again, it's worth a try. 

Procrastination. Defined as the act of procrastinating; putting off or delaying or deferring an action to a later time. I am guilty of this offense. I have been procrastinating (sort of..) not only with writing my blogs but a couple of other "tasks". I feel bad really. It's not something that I am proud of but letting out the reason why I procrastinate might help. 

Have you ever been frustrated with things or people around you? I HAVE. 

I know it's not healthy to let my frustration get the better of me but hey I am just human. The first quarter of 2010 proved to me that really.. EL NINO is here. There seemed to be a shortage of inspiration. Ideas remained ideas and were never put to good use. Friendships suddenly turned bland and soon lost its once sweet taste. All forms of Betrayal.. Lies.. Deceit..like a holocaust ruined what was once a happy place. 

We work to pay for dues but we build relationships to live and not just merely exist. In over a year's time, I have built great friendships and lasting professional relationships. It is however sad that not everyone will end up as a friend. Worse, some would be just another person you see everyday. I am not being dramatic or exaggerated about this but these things matter.. it may be insignificant to others but not to me. 

My environment and emotional state plays a big role on how I go through my daily routine..err responsibilities..whatever you want to call it. Bottom line is.. it's a big chunk of how I live my life. I  do not blame anyone but myself for feeling frustrated and demotivated. I need to leave the negativity behind. 

Q2 of 2010 will be the start of my productivity. No more procrastination. It will end the drought. 

Hakunah Matata my friends!


Monday, March 1, 2010

2010 posts..

I have been out of commission for the past 5 months. Writer's block as you may call it. Not that there are no blog worthy occasions in my life.. it's just a plain and simple case of inspiration loss. The last quarter of 2009 was in fact very eventful. If I tried to scribble it into posts.. I may have written more than a dozen. But I opted not to. 

It's the 1st day of March. Almost the end of the 1st quarter of 2010. It's time to let out my emotions. The suppressed anger... the exhilarating feeling of welcoming new people in my life and the pain of saying goodbye to a few. 

I am back.. and this time I will keep a promise to write my thoughts..

Monday, January 4, 2010

Starbucks, Sinigang and Awakenings

As I was ordering my morning coffee... note that this was 12 in the morning... the barrista so nonchalantly awoke something in my goldfish-of-a-brain...

"ma'am, would you like to try our jalapeno pepper?"

(In my head, i was screaming, "AYOKO!!!!!!! SHET. Kape lang di ba? KAPE!")

"No thanks, i'll just get the frappe..."

So then I realized I had an online blog account that had been sleeping soundly for almost a year now.... It was time... time to awaken once again and put this flippin' channel to good use.

I went through my day... barely surviving... ate home cooked sinigang with my mom and set to work...

Welcome me back to self awareness... Welcome me back to self loathe...

Usher in an new era of angst... it is, after all, almost Christmas. And if you know me well enough... or long enough... you'll understand this bit. 

The swell of emotions render me helpless and so, the words flow... my writing comes to me... I grasp for air hoping not to say too much, nor too little...

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