2010 posts..

I have been out of commission for the past 5 months. Writer's block as you may call it. Not that there are no blog worthy occasions in my life.. it's just a plain and simple case of inspiration loss. The last quarter of 2009 was in fact very eventful. If I tried to scribble it into posts.. I may have written more than a dozen. But I opted not to. 

It's the 1st day of March. Almost the end of the 1st quarter of 2010. It's time to let out my emotions. The suppressed anger... the exhilarating feeling of welcoming new people in my life and the pain of saying goodbye to a few. 

I am back.. and this time I will keep a promise to write my thoughts..

Starbucks, Sinigang and Awakenings

As I was ordering my morning coffee... note that this was 12 in the morning... the barrista so nonchalantly awoke something in my goldfish-of-a-brain...

"ma'am, would you like to try our jalapeno pepper?"

(In my head, i was screaming, "AYOKO!!!!!!! SHET. Kape lang di ba? KAPE!")

"No thanks, i'll just get the frappe..."

So then I realized I had an online blog account that had been sleeping soundly for almost a year now.... It was time... time to awaken once again and put this flippin' channel to good use.

I went through my day... barely surviving... ate home cooked sinigang with my mom and set to work...

Welcome me back to self awareness... Welcome me back to self loathe...

Usher in an new era of angst... it is, after all, almost Christmas. And if you know me well enough... or long enough... you'll understand this bit. 

The swell of emotions render me helpless and so, the words flow... my writing comes to me... I grasp for air hoping not to say too much, nor too little...

frustration

There is a need to manage my frustration. Note: the operative word is NEED. ugh... I have been working my ass to complete the CCC University Silver Certification. I am one online test away from my goal. Today, I took the test and failed again for the 3rd time! Sucks right? How can I allow myself to fail so many times? I admit this is not under the scope of my support but this is a company requirement. I am enlisting myself for another shot @ this test and keep my fingers crossed that this time around I will be successful. 

Here is a screen shot of my test score: